l(a leaf falls)oneliness by e.e. cummings

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— 'phfina comment: You know in japanime (you know ... yuri *blush*) when a character is so overwhelmed by whatever, by emotion, by the other person, by the circumstance, she is supposed to say something, but she can't so the speech-bubble shows this: "..."

Have I experienced loneliness like this? Like in ch 2 of BloodBuzz? Sure. But it's also so easy to snap out of that feeling. How do I do it? Well, sometimes (okay: a lot of times) I just wallow, and I waste the night in tears. But sometimes I get fed up with my emo angst, and I just get off my butt and just go out, you know? Go out to eat (mmm, grilled salmon salad!), or go to a bookstore or go ... Clubbing ... and get picked up by this really pale cutie (but why are her eyes so black?) or not ('cause she dumps me for her famous cousins ... b!tch, who cares if she's related to the great C.J. Rae and Vogue cover model Rosalie Hale? What am I? Chopped liver?) and just people watch, and even just doing that, I feel a bit more connected and alive.

So, yeah, I'm a good moper (one of the best), but I'm actually finding out I can choose not to do that if I don't want to. And finding that out? Trying that on? It's pretty cool, sometimes.